I've got a real problem.
Much of what is going on in the Church makes me want to vomit. Sometimes even literally. Like right now, my stomach is turning. I am so often repulsed by the Church in this country. I hate the substitute gospels of patriotism and moralism. I hate the judgmental undertones (and sometimes overtones). I hate the segmentation; the ghettos that are created at the expense of community.
I'm repulsed by the consumerism. Did you know you can rate churches on the internet now? No real surprise, I guess. The Church in this country is almost entirely driven by marketing. It's a business model. Meet people's felt needs and give them good entertainment, they'll buy your product. It's all pragmatics, really.
But it doesn't have anything to do with the gospel.
I hate the sexism, racism and fundamentalism.
Many people are being saved, you might say. Yes. I think it is obvious that God's sovereignty allows for the gross and obscene omissions and commissions of our sin-weighted souls. That is amazing grace.
It doesn't excuse us. It doesn't absolve us.
There is a deeper problem. I AM a part of the Church. I can't just opt out.
Beyond that, I love the Church. That's what makes all of this so difficult.
What can I do about all this? Especially when I'm so sick at my stomach.
Grace and peace.